My Refuge


Things go wrong. Plans don’t go as planned. Life throws you a curve ball. To be more specific – the children you raise may very well part from your example and instruction. They break your heart in the process.

Proverbs 22:6. Train up a child in the way he should go; Even when he is old he will not depart from it.
This is not a promise. It is a hope of every Christian parent. However, with television in this world it’s becoming less and less a possibility. New technology seems straight from somewhere other than heaven. Progressive teaching seems so backward that you might as well send your children to the Fagin School of ethics. But my title says it all. Even in what seems like a daily midnight we have a Refuge. His name is Christ Jesus. He is with us 24/7. When everything seems hopeless He is there listening and consoling us. All we need to do is make quiet time to share with Him. Turn off the phone, throw out the TV, and go to a quiet private spot. Tell Him everything. Listen in this peaceful oasis for His response.

Missed Time

I have missed out on getting closer to God by dwelling on stupid things that are out of my control.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 NIV





I have this embedded in my heart.

He is my salvation. He shows me the way. He forgives all my sins. When I turn back to Him for His love and consolation, He rushes to give it to me! If God does all this for the likes of me, I know He will do the same for you!!!


My Aunt Anna said,”sometimes when you see things in others it’s a reflection of yourself”. I want to see only the best in everyone, because I know God’s in them, but all to often I see something bad too. My consolation is that all of what I see is in God’s ultimate plan.


My job is to reflect on the lesson, “what about me do I see in them?”.


What is the great mystery?  Christ’s birth!  He always gives us comfort. We are not alone on our journey. Snap!


“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” …John 1:1

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.” …John 1:14

Queen of Heaven!

IMG_5333I love our Holy Blessed Mother Mary. She was there for me as a child and she still comforts me. I suffered from acute insomnia because of sexual abuse from a babysitter when I was 3. As a child I couldn’t fall to sleep so I asked my older sister every night to “just say yes”.  Three years ago, shortly before she died from ALS she asked me why I made her say yes every night. I never asked the whole question out loud. It was , “will you protect me, just say yes!” I learned my prayers early but didn’t understand the power they held until a very sweet and caring aunt told me to say 10 Hail Mary’s every night in bed. She said it would put me to sleep and it did work. With each prayer I always pictured Mother Mary, young and beautiful on a donkey riding very pregnant into Bethlehem with Joseph leading the way on foot holding a rope tied to the donkey. Then one night during the prayers she turned to me and asked me if I wanted to meet her son. My father had left, actually abandoned us when I was a year old. I only knew abandonment and abuse and didn’t like men at all. I wasn’t ready but I knew this was the beginning of the healing. I still said the prayer with the same relaxing effect and knew although I  wasn’t ready I soon would be. She didn’t give up on me, the question was always there. Then one night I said yes to her question and that was how I discovered Jesus, she introduced me.